Creedam -Utopian

Ultimate Star Ajith stars. Trisha too is in it but can hardly say she stars in it. Their romance is the major comedy track which is refreshing. Vivek too is around in his usual style but in a slightly negative role. Raj Kiran is the other major character in the movie. His voice is enough to keep one enthralled. He's now set in the caring, world on his shoulders role.

Saranya as mother is mix of earlier roles. Still sweet and very good on the eye. All the other characters come and go; even the villain hardly registers.

The story is the stand-up part of the movie. The theme revolves around the relationship between father and son. The perfect understanding and love that exist between them. The son falls in love, the father proposes marriage.
The father has a dream, the son follows through. Each is secure in the other's love.
Ajeeth being the hero is a tad more perfect than the father.

But, is such a relationship possible between two people? Even if it is blood related, do doubts never rise? is there never any doubt about the other's perfect understanding and never any ill-will?

Nice entertaining movie.

Pour time liberally over all that you do

Pour time liberally over all that you do.
That sounds wonderful and a recipe for unstressed, calm purposeful living.
It all also means cutting all the unecessary stuff out of your life.
And NOT FEELING GUILTY about it.

I need to practise all three.

Watching people who do things to perfection, I realise that they do few things at a time. They dont let themselves be swayed by other people. Into doing things urgently. And do few things which they dont want to.

I didnt go to Mudumalai today for a number of reasons. And am only slowly letting go of the guilt. That it was pouring in the morning reinforced the sanity of my decision, but do I need something like that to tell me I did right?

Just being is enough. I dont have to be right or good or perfect or striving to be better or making the right decisions all the time.

It is enough if I am here at home , with these kids who keep me pulled down to earth.

I dont want another child in this house again waiting for her results. Its too taxing on me. The stress, the depression, the querying. Altho so far it has always been good; and to watch the child bloom and scream and shout and rings up dozens of people is wonderful. I can live without both.:-)
I dont want the risk of a howling child on my hands.

This is like people saying ' i dont want the old man/woman dying in my house.'sounds very callous. But its absolutely human and natural.

A director was saying on tv yday 'every man (person) has the same thoughts running through him. Some good and many many bad. Its just society and the image he has of himself and that people have of him that stops him from giving to those impulses. No man is exempt from such thoughts. Its just how much he gives in that differentiates people. '

And for men the biggest weakness is women! So he used that for the theme of his movie.

He was talking about how directors fix on the story and develop it..fascinating.how the germ of the idea crops up and then how they let it grow using various factors. For instance, he had Jothika there, so he had to use her in various ways and let the story grow that way.

sin

Every living creature has taken up its form and has come into the world of objects for one great purpose, which is to gain an exhaustion of its existing mental impressions.

The bundle of vasanas with which an individual has arrived in this life in his incarnation is called his swadharma.

By not exhausting the old vasanas , one will be living under high -pressure when the existing tendencies are crowded up by the influx of new tendencies.

Chinmaya in his explanation of the Geetha says, this is why a boy born into a business family has unexplainable artistic tendencies.. they are a carry over from his previous birth. Denying his nature creates dissension and problems.

As a seeker who still has sensuous vasanas left in him, will feel dissatisfied if he goes into the forest and tries to lead the life of an ascetic and his mind is agitated by the pulls in both directions.

So should one give in to all the sensuous pulls; get over them and then move on to the new directions of this life? :-))
'lick the salt of the earth' is an expression used somewhere by someone. taste all the wordily pleasures and then getting tired of them, move on.

Coming back to Chinmaya - he says

Sin in Hindus ism is considered a mistake of the mind in which it acts contrary to its essential nature as the SELF.

So our inner feelings are us; the thoughts that spring up in the dark recesses are us; our basic instincts are us; what we feel and think.. is not wrong because it is us.

Only when we don't listen to all that is us are we sinning.
Listen to that little voice.

So are we being given a licence to go with our all impulses and not feel guilty?

Next he says:-(
Any act of sensuousness in which the mind pants forward into the world of objects, hoping to get thereby a joy and satisfaction, necessarily creates within its bosom more and more agitations; and this type of a mistake of the mind is called a sin.

so sin is again giving into worldly pleasures ? Or worldly pleasures which will agitate your mind.


so you can only do things which wont make you feel guilty?


our conditioning is what makes you feel guilty... its not necessarily wrong. A woman would feel guilty about doing certain things which a man wont..because that is what he has been taught to believe.
so, if you think its wrong, then its wrong.
Otherwise, its true to your basic nature and not a sin.

Early Morn

Having a fight gets you up early.

So I got 2 hours to work on Guns which is good because I was wondering how I was going to make the time to do it. And its about 75% done.

Sind says Im catty. That's okay with me. Better to be catty and interesting then bland and non commital and boring. Altho I think Im more crab like.

love?

Saw a movie about the life of Johnny Cash last night on Star.
That old country music and the wonderful deep voice is so appealing. He teams up to sing with this pretty pretty girl with a deep, great voice..June carter played by Reese Witherspooon. She look cute and sexy tho I wouldnt have thought so especially with a name like that.

But the theme of the movie is actually his love affair for June. She teams up with him on stage to take care of her kids and family. He' s married too but cant get her out of his system. They split but get back together on the road.

He keeps asking her to marry him- she wont. He takes to booze and drugs. She reforms him and supports him while he starts singing again. And she still wont marry him even tho he keeps asking her till ...the end very romantically of course on stage.

What puzzles me is why he stills stays fascinated with her. Its not even unsatisfied lust because she does sleep with him. Then what draws and holds him to her altho she keeps saying get away.

Like prince Edward who gave up his throne to marry Mrs. ...?

Johnny cash tells her I just want to look after you and your girls. In vetai au.. Kamal hassan tells Jothika when she says i do like you, from this moment you and May are mine. Is there some possessive instinct that wants to bind and keep in all or most men.

The Cider Rules

John Irving is a fabulous writer. He has wealth of detail and lots of story. Each character is distinct and unique and clear. How does this man think...? in a world of his own all the time?
the plots.. you cant even call it one.. it twists and turns and goes on and on.
This is fantasy , absurdity with lots of reality. While Rushdie is rather boring; Irving.. some of his books are fantastic. Widow for one year.. Cider house rules

His hotel books.. New Hampshire with the recurring theme of the bear.. you really cant recall the stories later.. but you can enjoy them while you read them.

Cider house starts with a Doc who becomes an abortionist when it was illegal. He runs an orphanage to keep the kids whom he cant abort. Loner. Ether sniffer; adored by his two tireless nurses.. Surrounded by kids some of whom are so distinct; his pet is Homer Wells.

Homer wells starts helping him with the baby deliveries when he is a boy. But refuses to go to Medical school. When a beautiful couple turns up to have an abortion he goes back with them to learn to grow apples and make cider.

The cider rules are stuck up every year for the team of apple pickers. They have ones of their own.- Dont mix too much with whites. The society in Maine has its own- let people come to their senses when they will - the committee that runs the orphanage has some more - and life has lots.
and they keep changing.. that's what Homer discovers.

He falls in love with Candy..the girl of the beautiful couple who are so kind to him. Wally, the other half, shares his room and clothes with Homer. Wally goes away to war and is reported missing/shot. Homer and Candy get together, she gets pregnant and they go back to St.Cloud's orphanage and hospital to have the baby.
They come back to Maine saying this baby we adopted. Wally reappears, crippled.
Candy is torn between the two men in her life. And she tells Homer she can only decide when she sees Wally. Sympathy and long friendship wins. She marries Wally and they all live together with the baby, Angel. Candy and Wally downstairs, angel and Homer upstairs. Does Wally know is what tortures them. And Angel is going to discover who his parents are.
And that's as far as I v'e got.

Saw the end of Pretty Woman for the nth time again. The end and when she goes shopping.. satisfying to woman’s soul. Like the new serial, Ugly Betty . Most women think they are ugly or appear ugly. And when ugly betty is revered for her smartness and cuteness and brightness and cheerfulness, then its like ok you have value and it can be your story.

Viva la chick lit and tv.

We come into each moment, unprepared, incomplete.. Rainer Maria wilkes

So true.. we still are in the hangover of what we were doing a few moments ago. . What we are going to do next is drifting in and out. So how do we focus on the now? Partially and unsatisfiedly

Everyone is talking about living in the moment. But how many actually practise it? very very few. Most of us city bred have goals to reach or at least think about, places to go and things.Lots of things to do .
When is living in the NOW?

On the Fast Track

Im actually reading my last post and grinning blearily. Because Im crazily busy now and as Dachu, says it seems the best time to blog....not when life is empty and full of time. I should be preparing my lessons for tomorrow but my mind refuses to function that way.

Home is a place where I come to eat and sleep. And unwind. The evidence of living is everywhere. Books and papers on surfaces which are not covered with drying clothes. I only have to wear a pair of socks and they are wet. Shoes ,slippers are drying around or trying to dry in the daylight. Ugly fuzzy caps line the livign room. Cartons of the English lessons I had packed away are lying with contents half inside and around. Candles and matches are permanently out. Meals are sketchy supplemented by all the biscuits I can eat without guilt swamping me totally.

Hugh Prather says ...If you are in doubt whether you should say something , then dont. Because when the heart is clear, the mind is too. Only when the ego is involved, and you may not be talking totally in the interest of the other, then doubt creeps in. Good to remember next time I want to point out some fault in another person and wonder virtuously whether I should


Another thing of his I liked. You can either talk/write subject or feelings to people. But its all mere words. What you are connecting to is something underneath all that. So disregard all those phrases and words that upset you.
People want to be appreciated and supported. And that is what is underneath all our exhanges.